"Flesh and Blood?"
I am one of the few adoptees that actually looks like her adoptive parents (Well a mix of them)...
Strangely I looked like a genuine mix of my adoptive parents.... I even shared some of the same moles and whatnot as my dad... People always told me that I look just like my parents when I was growing up... My mother's response was always "She's adopted" My dad's was "Thank you" (my mom has also been documented as a sociopath -among many other mental ailments- since my adoption)
the funny thing is though... every time I was handed a genetics assignment in school I would break down and cry, so my adad would have to call and explain why I can't do the assignment... all they (the assignments) ever did was point out the differences like why I am not my parents blood (eye color, etc)...
Since then I have had an obssession with blood... I cannot bear the idea of adopting (seeing them feel the way I have felt) and after 2 misscarriages I am nervous if I will ever be able to have "my own flesh and blood" Yes there is plenty of time before I am really worried about this -- but the older I get the more I realize that time is running out...
does anyone else feel like they could never adopt? like having their own "flesh and blood" is their only chance at having a healthy relationship with a blood relative?
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