[Jackiejdajda]

Codependency

From Codependent No More.. Melody Beattie..

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A codependent person is one who has let another person’s behavior affect him or her, and who is obsessed with controlling that persons behavior..


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2. Do you know anybody who has significantly affected your life, somebody whom you worry about and wish you could change? Who? Write several paragraphs about that person and your relationship.






I wish I could have changed my mother.. She was a hard person to please make happy make all better..
But to this day I still obsess on her.. her what I am supposed to be..
In her eyes.. ha..

I wish I could change her in my head.. I wish I had of had a mother that was caring and giving and warm and loving but it did not happen.. I was raised by a woman that ‘took passes’ in life..
And she wanted me to take the same passes.. and be somebody..
I tried it with my art.. I cheated when I was working cheated myself..
I started doing The Artist Way written by Julia Cameron.. and she asked me why I am in a tortured dance with this crazymaker woman.. still.. She died years ago..
I am not good enough never going to be good enough.. so I better cheat and then “have a drink!”

Its about finding out the why of it to me..
Why can’t I get past this and be happy in my soul..

I think this is several paragraphs..

Please note... all are welcome to post in this thread.. I put it in the birthfamily support area..
To me all sides of the triangle (that is not a triangle) are connected..

I remember a John Bradshaw show where he had a triangle on the stage and he showed where if one part of the triangle moved the other parts did as well..

Jackie