[guategranny]

My heart goes out to you. It is with a leap of faith that one begins the journey to adoption, especially those without any children at home. It is a long painful journey of sometimes dealing with unethical, unkind, and thoughtless agencies; of unending roadblocks along the way, of coping with the terrible fear of "What if?" and the fear that once the dream seems to be happening something may go wrong. For many, the long arduous journey ends with the joy of a baby to love....but even then, for some the scars of the journey remain. However, with that said, the loss you have incurred is unbearable to even comprehend, let alone endure. May God give you and yours the courage and love to survive these dark days.