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Thanks to all who have responded to my post. It is always comforting to get insight from others who have gone through this. I decided to talk to my husband last night, and although there were a few tense moments in the beginning, we both calmed down enough to have a conversation about it. It helped me to get some of my feelings out, let out some steam and some tears. He cannot know how I feel, and he acknowledges this, but I think he is slowly realizing how complex and life-changing this is for me.

I also met with my doctor today, and he encouraged me to talk with my dad asap, because if something were to happen to him, I would never get all the answers I need. He is totally right, but it sure is going to be hard to get those first words out. My dad has a history of running when the conversation gets serious, so I hope he will give me the answers I need. I am feeling a little better, although the stress has been manifesting itself physically - my chest is tight, my stomach hurts, I am exhausted. I hope that will resolve soon, because I have 2 little boys to take care of!

Again thank you to all who have responded, and thanks for the links. I'll take all the prayers I can get!