First and foremost...I am truly and honestly, with great sadness in my heart,..saddend for you. I am wondering, is it possible you tell us how close you are and how you BOTH have dealt and built on your reunion. Was and is it of such, that both have excepted and forgiven ALL misunderstanding, questions and all the "WHY's" of your and her journey that has brought you to present? I guess, as a firstmom, I would need to know you were happy and content with what brought her to a point of having to let you go. This would be of my greatest concern having to go away knowing you were not "whole" with what took place. This is just me speaking as a firstmom. My biggest fear, is that I will not get to see them and know they are content. If you have unresolved issues and she is still healthy enough to communicate, then this would be the time to put all to rest, she can then go knowing she found her baby, and all the good she wanted for you is in place. I am a firm believer in the fact...life is too short and we are never promised another day...so say what needs to be said and spend as much time as you can with her. I lost my Dad 10 yrs ago...it is a grief of profound magnitude and I miss him so much. It is similar to the grief I feel not knowing where my twin sons are, only I have no place to mourn my sons, where as with my dad I do! I offer Peace and my prayers are with you....
