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I think everyone has panic, I have serious issues getting excited about things and then at the last moment, wondering and flipping out about what was I thinking, and I can't do this! I and DH are in the process of adoption paperwork and just finished. And I am already panicking and I haven't even got a match yet. I wonder all the time what am I doing, is it the right or wrong thing, will I regret it later...the questions keep coming. But this just isn't about adopting..I have 2 bio-kids and I hate to say, but I felt the same way with them and I have the most wonderful and easiest kids on the planet and just love and adore them, but its with lots of situations..even buying homes, moving, the list goes on and on..I am on board then I get really, REALLY nervous. I think for me it comes down to what God wants for me, what HIS will is for me. I know if I do this on my own, I WILL back out for many reasons, mostly because I am so unsure. I do love kids and at 36 am very very young looking for my age, kids naturally gravitate to me and my DH as we are small people, just 5'1'' and 5'5'' inches who look like we are in our early 20's. My DH will be 40! We used to HATE looking young, now today we just love it! But still I panic! So even if I can't give you some words of wisdom..I can say this much, you are in such GOOD company as I am EXACTLY like you! But it does work out in the end for me, usually, once I just go through the nervousness! Good Luck!
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