I have a question....or maybe just a comment! I am a Firstmom and have faught types of addiction that basically started within months of my relinquishing my twin sons. I can honestly say I did not have these demons before I became pregnant with them. I slowly became aware that I was alone in MY world, yes I had a wonderful son and an okay relationship with the twins father, but none-the-less alone. No one to understand what I was going through. I don't know what qualifies one to be an "addict", but for 22 yrs now have at times drank and smoked to be able to handle my thoughts of my horrible nightmare of relinquishing my twins...after all what kind of person can do that? I am able to go several days without drinking and several days without smoking, but then I have a really hard day of thoughts about them and feel like I can only "make "it if I have a cig. and drink to dull my grief. Does this make me an addict and do you think there is the slightest chance my sons are out there dealing with this issue in the same way...I ask because I also see...some believe it is genetic. If so what have I done to them, when all I ever wanted was for them to be in a stable ,providing ,loving home. I know you nor anyone can possibly answer the latter, but does this qualify me as an addict? Any comments are welcome!
