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Like for me I don't think it's irrational to be angry (especialy at broken promises ..etc).
But I think it's irrational to stay angry. I can't force others to be what i want them to be or act how i want them to act.
But if I'm Choosing to still have them be in my kids life, knowing they are that way or act that way or can't be what I want them to be.
Then that's where it turns irrational for me. I can't expect them to be what i want them to be and evey time they fail to meet those expectations I put out there. I can't allow myself to be and stay upset about it when they fail at it or just don't show they care as much as I'd like to see.
To be rational would be to either say it's unexceptable and they are not going to be an active part of my childs life.
Or to be rational would be to just accept them for who they are and the way they are and just be grateful for whatever relationship we do have with them. Realizing that we are all just human and have flaws and make mistakes.
I've chosen the second option. But it's still hard not to get irrational, when things do happen and the big momma bear in me comes out wanting to protect my kids from those things, while still wanting to keep that relationship open.
Rational or not it's just not healthy to hang onto that anger if I want to keep this relationship open and healthy.
*While I'm excited to hear that grandma responded to my e-mail and is asking to get together. Part of me..after dwelling on this the last couple days, is a little hesitant(talk about irrational..getting what you asked for and then not sure if you want it). I can feel that hurt, dissapointment and even some anger as I consider our next visit while still remembering all the feelings when they missed the last one (that could have been so special).
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