[EZ2Luv]

No flames here I am somewhat in the same boat. My bmom denied me knowing who she was and took it to her grave. She obviously just did not want me when I was born and had absolutely no intentions of aknowledging me as a daughter throughout her life. I did know her growing up only never knew she was my biomom. I also knew her to be manipulative, selfish and self centered and that she would have jumped at the oppurtunity of an abortion if she could.
The ONLY reason I can think of as to why she did not abort me was because abortions back then were illegal and not readily available if not trust, me she would have been first in line at a clinic.
The sad harsh reality for me is knowing that my bmom is just one of those cold callous people who would stop at nothing to have things thier way.
My only consolation is coming here and reading of the bmoms that DO care and love their biochildren. This is where I get strength.
Also, having had a bmom that was so selfish and seeing how her raised kids turned out makes me realize how blessed I was to not have been raised. I witnessed how she treated her raised children and they were "wanted" and kept.

Is it possible that like my bmom, that abortions were simply not as available as they are now? I mean there could be a million reasons but she is the only one who knows why. Another thing too is that maybe by the time she reaslized she was pregnant, she was too far along to get an abortion.
It really sux, having questions and not being able to have answers and even worse when there is a person that hads the answers and for some reason will not answer them.
I know I could drive myself crazy trying figure out answers to questions I may never know like who is my bfather? I just got to a point where I say "it is what it is" and I will never know so I just choose to accept that I will never know because if not I can drive myself crazy.

EZ