[kakuehl]

I'm glad it helps to write out your thoughts. This is a place where almost all of us come to vent at one time or another. I can't say that I understand everything you have written. What I can tell you is that even in the best of times the hormones that are unleashed by pregnancy send the emotions all over the place.

Darling, if I read your posts correctly you are eighteen. You have lots of years left to change the direction of your life. All of us need to feel important to someone. Right now you are very important to that life growing within you. I hope you never doubt that. I don't know the particulars of what's happening for you right now. Have you gone to a crisis pregnancy center? I have no clue what resources are available to you where you are. I'm sorry this is being such a rough time for you. I can tell you that it's been 36 years since I placed my first born for adoption. Life does go on and it can even be good. Try not to give up hope.