[Marimar]

Hi darling.

You make sense do not worry .. You are worried and that is so understandable.. You are afraid ..
I am soo afraid that you will rush things because there is no one there to help you..
I am so afraid that there will no be anyone beside you who will be there for you when you need.

I was just thinking ? Do you have counceling it seems that you dont. Is there anyone that can help you..
Where are you? May be there are birthmoms in your area who can help you ..

I am so sorry for your situation.. Are you working ? Do you have any choice apart from relenquishing ? Do you have any resources in your area did
you make any research ?

I am so afraid that you will not have even small time with your child in the hospital or after since you seem you will not be able to stand for yourself and what you want.
I strongly advise you to spend some time with your child before you part.

I do not know.. How can we help you?