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Stronger.... oh yeah, I placed a child and was rejected by my firstmom in a matter of months and I'm still here, although there were moments that I thought I might not be.
Better.... Different and more healthy, but better? Naw. I strive to be someone my son can be proud of and to make good and healthy choices because I want him in my life.
More tolerant? I was pretty tolerant before, having grown up adopted, I thought about stuff that was triad related LONG before I placed my son.
There are things though that placing has done to me that aren't so great. I'll spend the rest of my life grieving and feeling like people struggle to understand me, and that isn't such a great feeling.
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First mom to the amazing Kiddo and adopted adult.
1-4-2009 Mom and I visit Kiddo despite the bad weather. He really loved the blue mittens I made him and even helped me plan my living room. Apparently Hot Wheels wallpapper is the way to go.
2-16-2009 I got a promotion, that comes with a raise. Mom and Dad are visiting and we're going to Al's for pie to celebrate.
4-27-2009 Dad surprises me with a Lady Ugly Stick (an awesome fishing rod that is pink) and a 2nd Iowa Light Artillery Battery jacket. I'm a lucky girl!
5-30-2009 Kiddo turns five. It is hard to believe he is that old already, it seems like just yesterday he was being born. I was at peace for the first time on his birthday, what a nice feeling.
6-13&14 2009 A cannon live fire in Casper WY. We got third place and I got to see Devil's Tower for the first time, it was pretty awesome.
7-4-2009 Amelia the kitten comes to live with me and Liz. Talk about jealousy, Liz will adjust though.
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