[winter444]

Wow, 22 years!!!

I feel very strongly about this subject and I know exactly how you feel, I too was actually dreaming about my 1/2 siblings on bmom's side, LONGED to contact them, it all just hurt so badly and i could not just go on and forget them. They were not supposed to ever know about me, it would ruin bmom's life...(charming) contact with bmom went kaput pretty quickly, no feelings were supposed to be shown.
I thought it over, never wanted to be an old lady and look back and wished I had contacted them, I figured if they just didn't want contact it should be their decision, no one elses.
This is what I did, found out their addresses and wrote them all letters, now I did find one sibling on myspace so emailed her and at first said I was a relative and did I have her correct address as I'd like to send her a letter, she emailed back, sure please write. she is so happy I made contact, we have talked on the phone for hours, we laugh, we cry.
I needed to contact them, for me, why should we suffer this way. At least they will know I exist and it's up to them what they want to do. They don't need to be protected from us, we are their sister for crying out loud.
Honestly, I say go ahead and contact your siblings, it is a terrible feeling to be THE secret.
You have waited so very long for this, even talked to your bmom about contacting them, you have really been so patient and are doing nothing wrong.

I know I was so frightened of rejection I put the letters off for months but am so glad I finally took the plunge.
good luck with whatever you decide, I understand totally.