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Hello! I found my birth mother & father 22 years ago, when I was 21 years old. I have met my bf & 1/2 sis on his side, have never met birthmom (her choice) and she has not told her other kids (1/2 bro 18 months younger than me & 3 other 1/2 sibs)

My "relationship" with her has been very strained, she has, on occasion, told me she could have had an abortion (gee thanks) and even refused to do a genetic test when I was diagnosed with a very rare type of breast cancer 8 years ago. BUT- she has always, at the end of every phone conversation we have ever had, asked me, "If I ever change my mind about telling my other children about you, will you still be there?" DUH. Of course. Ive waited this long....

Anyhoo, I called her last week, because the urge to make contact with my siblings has been very overwhelming lately. I have been dreaming about them, etc. Our conversation was pleasant, but when we were hanging up, I asked her if she had changed her mind about telling them. She said she has decided they do not need to know about me at this time. I have never come right out and asked her to tell them, either.

I told her that it had been almost 22 years, and that there will never be a "right time", and that I really needed closure. She told me that it was not about me, and that she got her closure when she signed the final papers, and that I should not "upset her apple cart", lol.
I told her that it WAS about me, and that I felt it would be best for all parties if the news came from her. She said she wouldnt, and that I would not ever have a relationship with her if I did this. I told her I had weighed that risk, and that since I do not have one with her now, I wouldnt be out anything, and if my siblings decide to not have anything to do with me b/c I went against her wishes, that was a risk I was willing to take.
So, I know their names, where they live, etc. How do you suggest I go about this? Email? Phone call? Myspace? (yes...I am myspace friends with my 1/2 brother, but he does not know who I am)
BTW- all my sibs are close to age 40, so it's not like they are teenagers.
Any help would be soooooo appreciated!
Thanks again.