Oh, Kate, I am so sorry you're feeling down. I can sure relate... Even though I've been in reunion for over 18 years, some days are still rough for me when it comes to adoption-related issues.
Although a lot of my original birthmom grief and loss issues have undergone much healing, there are still "rough patches", at least for me. They aren't as bad as they were years ago, and they don't come as often, but they still do show up from time to time.
I guess healing for me has meant being able to forgive myself for relinquishing my son 36 years ago. It also means that I'm not overwhelmed with grief and sadness all the time, like I was when I was younger. The grief never totally goes away, but it does become bearable.
Many hugs and much love coming your way, kiddo.
