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Originally Posted by binkybear
PS...some of those "gift, unselfish, chose life" phrases listed in the OP sound very familiar though. I've read more of those sentences and sentiments on parent profiles and other adoptive "dear birthmother" sites than I can count. It's a common running theme out there. Is it more "ick" when coupled with the abortion topic or is it just as "ick" all toghether.
I'm reading a site and agency recommended book right now that is filled with letters stressing all of these phrases and sentiments. Are we talking from both sides in this adoption world and maybe creating what in the end offends us? Thinking out loud on that one.
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When people say things like that to me, quite frankly I get nauseous. I feel selfish because I didn't pony up and raise my son. I feel like I placed him and then went on to have fun and stuff that I wouldn't have been able to otherwise. (Don't get me wrong, my life isn't filled with exotic vacations and expensive stuff, just that I can do what I want when I want.)
I will forever feel like I was irresponsible and created a situation that should have never happened in the first place.
Does that mean I wish I wouldn't have carried him? No, it means I wish I wouldn't have gotten pregnant in the first place.
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First mom to the amazing Kiddo and adopted adult.
1-4-2009 Mom and I visit Kiddo despite the bad weather. He really loved the blue mittens I made him and even helped me plan my living room. Apparently Hot Wheels wallpapper is the way to go.
2-16-2009 I got a promotion, that comes with a raise. Mom and Dad are visiting and we're going to Al's for pie to celebrate.
4-27-2009 Dad surprises me with a Lady Ugly Stick (an awesome fishing rod that is pink) and a 2nd Iowa Light Artillery Battery jacket. I'm a lucky girl!
5-30-2009 Kiddo turns five. It is hard to believe he is that old already, it seems like just yesterday he was being born. I was at peace for the first time on his birthday, what a nice feeling.
6-13&14 2009 A cannon live fire in Casper WY. We got third place and I got to see Devil's Tower for the first time, it was pretty awesome.
7-4-2009 Amelia the kitten comes to live with me and Liz. Talk about jealousy, Liz will adjust though.
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