[crystalp]

We are licensed through our state DCFS for foster care and adoption. Right now, our CW knows we only want one child, 12 months or younger. We said this because we already have 3 kids, ages 6 and twin 4 year olds, and the twins take a lot of energy. Plus, I really want one more little baby!

But I can't shake this feeling that we are supposed to be looking at about a 1 1/2-2 1/2 year old and also a little baby. Maybe a sibling group. I've had this feeling for a while now, and I really want to do it, but frankly I'm scared! What if we can't handle it? I really don't want to disrupt. That would be horrible! I would really LOVE to have another child that is closer in age to the twins instead of a 4 year gap. I think that we could make bedroom arrangements work, too. Our kids are each in their own room, and even though we really wanted our youngest DD to have her own room (she really needs her sleep and a place to cool down by herself, or she gets really, really cranky), I think that we could figure something out if this is what we are supposed to do.

I know I can handle adding a little baby to the family, but it's the older child that gives me pause. I really want to do it, but I wonder if we have the ability to give the older child, a baby, and our current children all of the attention that they need. On the other hand, we are really religious, and I can't help but think this is a prompting from above. Am I crazy to want to do this?