[asauer]

Lou,
I am sending the biggest hug to you right now! While everyone's experience is different, I remember how terrible the first couple of months were when we brought Maverick and Catalina home. I think the worst part is having an extended period of time when you don't feel like yourself at all due to lack of sleep, lack of routine and general lack of control. Can you have a friend, relative, babysitter come over once per week for an hour or so? After the first 3 weeks at home, I realized I needed some help. So I had someone come in just once a week for and hour or hour and a half during which time I would go grocery shopping, take a nice long shower and actually get dressed without hurring, or go down the street to our library and browse while it was actually quiet. These things helped me to feel like myself again, and regaining that little bit of normal helped immensely.