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Lou, bless your heart. I have been in your shoes. When we brought Luke home, I had a 9 month old and a 14 month old. They both wanted mama and were very adamant about it. Sam's whole world had just been rocked, as had Luke's. Sam wanted reassurance that he was okay and we were okay. Luke needed it to, but for differerent reasons.
My point - the first few months were hard. Really hard at times. Looking bad, I am astounded that I did it, almost by myself (Tony was working long hours at the time). I can't tell you how many times I said to myself, "God blessed me with my sons. I CAN do this. I WILL do this."
Looking back, I wasn't taking great care of myself either. I was on "auto pilot" and determined to do all that my sons needed. I don't think any amount of reading could have prepared me for going from no children to 2 small children 5 months apart in 7 months. Thank God I had my dear friends who had also adopted to talk to.
But at the end of the day, I would collapse. I was exhausted. P.S. I am currently intensely studying attachment (for school) and one of the elements that is important to attachment is that the primary caregiver has support and cares for herself. It is important for you and ALSO for your girls!
I am sending you big hugs!! PM me anytime, K? It does get easier. It WILL get smoother.
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 Jules
5/23/06- our sweet baby Samuel Miles born
1/19/07 - Home with The Giggler and never been happier!
11/08/06 - our sweet baby Lucas Matthew born
8/21/07 - Home!!! The Growler is just like his brother - a complete HONEY BEAR!
June 4, 2009- Julian "Jude" Thomas born. He is the sweetest of hearts. Oh, how I love my boys so!
Our children are not ours because they share our genes...they are ours because we have had the audacity to envision them and hope for them.
That, at the end of the day...or long sleepless night, is how love really works. - Unknown
I LOVE MY SWEET SONS!!!
Last edited by jules17 : 09-15-2008 at 05:48 AM.
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