First Failed Adoption
I have never posted here before but I often come in and read to gain support and so I am here again. My husband and I just experienced or first failed adoption. We have been supporting the mother for the last 3 months and she is due in 2 weeks with an African American baby girl. We have two biological little boys that help me get through it every time I look at them however I am struggle a lot more than I anticipated.
I was not prepared to mourn a baby that was never really mine to begin with. I allowed myself to feel her, need her and protect her and now I am without her.
The birth mothers parents stepped in this past week and want to raise the baby. I don't want to be angry at the birth mother because I know that she just doesn't have the strength to stand up to her parents. I want to and will move on tomorrow with a new plan but I can't help but think that I am supposed to change her mind for her daughter is meant to be with us.
Tears from TN . . .
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