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Originally Posted by Jackiejdajda
I wrote to him.. from my Codependents Guide to the Twelve Steps.. Melody Beattie..
page 21..
Step One gives us permission to relax, stop controlling, deal with our fear, and take care of ourselves..
Crazymakers that make us crazy or angry.. need to be looked at..
Yes.. we learn..
Jackie
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I guess one of my fears about admitting I'm not in control of other people, that I don't need to control anybody else, is if I don't control things, who will? And I look at this sentence that I just wrote, and I so plainly see the absurdity of it.
When you grow up in a home where none of the adults are in control, it's scary as heck... And you learn real fast that by controlling things, you feel safer. But then it really comes back to bite you in the end.
I cannot believe that I'm almost 54 years old, and still learning new stuff every day... Thank God, Goddess, Higher Power, Universe, Cosmos ~~ it's kind of a relief not to feel that I have to control stuff and people that I really never had any control over in the first place. Does that make any sense??