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Dear Loveccl,
I sympathise completely with what you're going through. I have these same fears about my daughters who are with me. After reliquishing my babies, I was left with this fear of losing any other children. I think my fear didn't have as much to do with family/friends as it did with strangers.
I've always been paranoid about something happening to my daughters; them being grabbed, that kind of thing.
I was saying on another thread that last month my daughters were traveling together from Detroit where we live to Columbus, OH (some 4 & 1/2 hours south). The entire time they were on the road I was a nervous wreck...checking the clock, wringing my hands, posting in here about how afraid I was, calling my hubby constantly and asking if he though they were okay.
He knows about my babies and so understood what I was going through. I'm lucky in that way.
I just sort of rode it out and they got where they were going safe and sound. (Thank you God).
But this kind of thing still pops up for me. I'm hoping that if and when I get to meet my son & daughter that that part of my wounded heart will begin to heal.
For now though I just try to take it easy on myself and try to also understand that adoption leaves scars that sometimes time doesn't erase.
Wishing you peace today,
Janey
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