[BrockBaby]

You are not alone in your silent search, as I refer to mine. I decided, as an adult, to both search and not tell my parents. The reasons I did were many. For one thing, my parents never really talked about my adoption or my feelings towards it. It felt "strange" to bring the topic up. Another reason I didn't tell was because I didn't want to deal with their reactions or feelings about it. I had enough to deal with on my end. I am an adult..it's an adult decision. I didn't feel that they would have given me the support that I needed from them. It's sorta strange..I LOVE LOVE LOVE my parents to pieces...but I'm not really the kind of person that seeks their advice on much. I've always been very independant in that way. My mom will even tell you...Lori, has always been her own person with her own mind. So really, it probably wouldn't come to a shock to them that I searched on my own. The last reason I didn't share was that my dad was in a nursing home (still is..will be four years in december...DANG! He ended up there because of complications due to diabetes...but one thing lead to another. He's in his right mind...it's his body that won't cooperate!) ANYWAY..it has been a lot of stress and such...so I didn't really want to add to the load.

It's funny. I want to tell them now, but I don't really know how. I know that I will someday...just making sure it's the right time.