I am 18, leaving for college in 3 days, and almost 9 weeks pregnant.
After being diagnosed with a "stomach virus" by 2 doctors since early August, producing a negative urine test, and finally being given a blood pregnancy test, I found out I was pregnant 1 week ago. It's certainly NOT a stomach virus haha. Since the beginning, I knew that abortion was not an option. My boyfriend of over a year is scared, I know, but I need his support. He felt strongly about me getting an abortion and so did his father, but I explained to him that I just can't. Now he really wants me to check into adoption, and so do I...I think. He was really coming around, and I appreciated it so much, yet this weekend he has not spoken to me because of a fight we got into. In the beginning when he was strongly pro-abortion, I spoke to a friend of his to try to really understand what he was thinking. I had not yet told him that I spoke to that friend, and now he's upset that I went behind his back. I somewhat understand but I feel it's trivial in the grand scheme of things right now. He was supposed to be moving to Philadelphia in a month to be with me, but now I honestly don't know what's going on. My parents have been very supportive, especially my mother. They say that they support me in whatever decision I make, yet they too are clearly pro-adoption. I've tried to explain that it's hard and I'm trying but then there's a part of me that thinks maybe I could parent. I keep thinking about all the expenses, though, and my parents remind me of that. I know I have some time to decide and I know I can get some counseling while at my first semester of school but I'm just so overwhelmed. Some days I think adoption could be right yet I find myself thinking of my unborn baby and the unconditional amount of love (among other things) I know can offer it.
Help
