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Often when I tell people I was adopted people will ask me why I was adopted out. I tell them that when my bmother was pregnant with me she said that if the baby was a boy they would keep it but if I were a girl they would adopt out. I'm not sure how much of it is true because I'm only saying what my amother now - I was adopted twice - has told me. I was adopted from nauru in the Pacific, and it's said that I have a brother and roughly 8 or 9 sisters. I take it that my bparents were trying for a boy... Sometimes people don't know what to say when I say that because I'm always so nonchalant about it. I still feel that way.
Everyone in my family is adopted though and there are 5 of us. It is hard to feel like I belong sometimes because I had such a disfunctional family growing up. A lot of people don't know that though, only my closest and loved ones.
It can be hard telling your story to total strangers and even friends depending on your own experience and whether you let the your past control who you are. I have always tried to focus on all the positives rather then the negatives mind you I went through 2,1/2 years of counseling to get where I am now. I still get down though, just not as often.
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