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ok, i've finished the reading, am going to start a morning page schedule on monday, and will have to do an artist date by myself for an hour next week as i am having a 2nd reunion with bdaughter and family next week! i'm flying to WA and going camping with them and 50 of their friends....oh my!


oh, and when it comes to monsters...
i need to vent. really really badly. i'm going to do it here because its the safest thread i know. i've considered quitting adoption.com strongly so many times this week as i've stumbled upon hateful post after hateful post regarding birthmothers. i've learned to avoid the foster forums, but i'm getting really sick and tired and hurt reading comments by aparents & fosters about bmoms. horrible things like, and i quote directly "they need to be spayed and neutered" , "my egg donor" and constant joyful references to the lack of birthmother rights (and why would we deserve respect anyway? we're a bunch of drugged out, incompetent, uncaring women who were stupid enough to give these people our babies). i've found a lot of support from other birthmoms on this site, but it seems there are very few of us compared to the number of other triad members with huge chips on their shoulders. it seems when anything even slightly offensive is said about aparents or foster parents, all heck breaks loose. but birthmother's are supposed to take it and "understand" that the other's have a need to vent for the sake of the children. why is it still so prevalent, even on an adoption support site, for hateful, judgmental comments to be so common and acceptable? is there a good site for just birthmother's that maybe i should join? i usually try to not respond when i see postings that i consider mean, but i am tired of sitting there quiet while the world judges us all, meanwhile enjoying the children that we "produced" for them and screaming out how they are "mine mine mine".

sorry to be so off topic but i don't think any of the cruel ones are too interested in the artists way.

i just needed to put it out there.

now i will go put myself in a time out and recite the serenity prayer.