Good morning everyone!
I just reread this whole thread and I want to say thanks to all the responses! I don't usually get much time to post as I have little ones running around. I feel a little more clarity today and I"m hoping, for my husbands sake that I will be in a better mood today lol.
Shadowrider....you posted
Well, it's just really hardd to teach old dogs new tricks, especially if the trick is difficult and the dog would prefer the security and comfort of familiar surroundings such as, laying under the porch in the shade, even if its a little muddy and their are fleas. Once the old dog crawls under the porch, getting him out aint gonna be easy. If he don't want to come out, he's gonna do a lot of growling and biting, and in the end...he still aint coming out. Sometimes the best thing to do is let laying dogs just lay.
geesh...this sounds SO much like my bparents! Did you ever get angry when you realized that
this was how your bparents are?? I fip between being sad/hopeful and then angry.
Sometimes..I think I just want some hint of acceptance and love and then I think, I deserve better than scraps!!!!
My bfather, has pretty much always been under the porch! I think he has had an especially hard time with my adoption ...but you know, it's been almost 5yrs since our reunion and we have definately not gotten closer.... I"m tired of this superficial relationship.... I have been pretty much at a loss with what to say to him anymore...we only talk every once in awhile on MSN and then the few token visits each year. I know this is better than nothing...but I deserve better than that don't I??? I once said to somone...if you don't like me for who I am..then maybe we shouldn't
know each other. My bfather needs counselling...for sure,before he can really talk to me..... I get the "I"m sorry you feel that way" answer...for everything.
MY bmom, well.....I'm just SO weary of hoping for a substantial relationship with her. I'm tired of taking a risk..then getting hurt. I"m pretty much at the end with her if she doesn't have something substantial to say after her prolonged silence. It really is a shame...her mom really would have loved my children.
tlee