I know
It's the BEST feeling! Total validation! It's been a month since I added her and didn't think she would respond.
Ok so I'll tell you why I was down. 3 things. E's birth mother is "on the run" from her boyfriend (not E's Bfather). She's literally gone underground and I have no way of reaching her. This guy is just like Julia Robert's husband in that movie where she has to run away or swim away or whatever. It's really scary and the whole thing is so sordid and it makes me very sad
I don't know if I'm sad for her or for us because sometimes I don't know if she's ever going to be together enough for the kind of OA I want but hey make plans God laughs and all that.... trying to go with the flow and not be perfectionist about stuff. (I'd better not be perfectionist because MAN we've got quite a crew in this OA! LOL)
Then the lifting of our family album from our Myspace to hers. Some of her friends are great ...others not so much. (Prison shots on myspace!) And can't reach her to ask her to take it off.
And finally had a very awkward convo with E's bio father yesterday. He was so sad and sweet and just not himself. I felt like I said so many stupid things....I was trying too hard to cheer him up. Ugh it was so awkward. No other word for it.
So those three things left me kind of embarrassed and scared and depressed.
Ok now you can support me.
