[Jackiejdajda]

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i just got my books: i bought the artist's way complete, which has the artist's way, walking in this world, and finding water... i also got the artist's way workbook, just because i always overdo everything and like workbooks in general...

I love it!

also received my copies of the girls who went away and primal wounds today, so if i can tear myself away from the web i'll be plenty busy...
ps - i will hold off on primal wounds, i've been warned it might be to intense for now

i always feel excited like a kid when i get a box of books...

Me too!

I bet the primal wound would be good to work on terms of ourselves..

From The Artist Way.

Page 29

Protecting the Artist Child Within..

Remember your artist is a child. Find and protect that child. Learning to let yourself create is like learning to walk.. The artist child must begin by crawling..

further down the page..

In recovering from our creative blocks, it is necessary to go gently and slowly.. What we are after here is the healing of old wounds – not the creation of new ones..

yes, i've been warned it can be a bit too heavy and was a bit of a controversy on this site -- having said that, i will save it for a later date when i am coping better.

I to this day can not read the primal wound on terms of my bson.. and I know one day I must..
I must face that dragon..

I look down on the page I just quoted and I see I wrote on the side of it..
Mistakes are necessary in life!

But baby steps is what we are after.. IMO

i've read so many posts on other forums of this site about birthmother grief and how it needs to be hidden for the sake of others, and so many nasty things written here about birthmothers in general -- i'm kind of afraid to stray off the birthmother support forums now. i get too upset at negative stereotypes and have too many problems of my own to focus on other people's opinions (which they have a right to have and share) and which i can't change anyway.

I just don’t read the negative posts if they upset me..
I no longer fight for ‘right’ here.

I did it for a long time.. and I still at times do it in another place.. were there are no moderators..
But this place is safe.. it is well moderated.

Kathy is the best..

so, started on the girls last night, maybe 50 pages, already am SHOCKED that by 1985 things had changed so little...i really hope it is different now.

i'm going to start reading the into and beginning to the artists way, so i'll just wait to see when we're all ready to start discussing and doing exercises. this is going to be good for me, i can feel it.

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Spiritual Electricity..

The Basic Principals..

For most of us, the idea that the creator encourages creativity is a radical thought. We tend to think, or at least fear, that creative dreams are egotistical, something that God wouldn’t approve of for us. After all, our creative artist is an inner youngster and prone to childish thinking. If our mom or dad expressed doubt or disapproval for our creative dreams, we may project that same attitude onto a parental god. This thinking must be undone..


My parents would tell me I must be an artist and I was rewarded for doing drawings.. None of it was real creativity for me.. it was for kudos.. and “You are great Jackie.”
Real creative for me is taking that part of me that is so vulnerable and letting it out so I can have fun in my day..
I once took a drawing painting course at the local Museum and was working so hard at copying a Chinese gown..
The teacher came by and said to me.. “This is supposed to be fun.”
Ah.. I thought..

It would further you to have something to do.. says the IChing..

That’s the key to me.. busy hands busy thoughts working through the day.. thoughts about expressing our selves..
Staying in the right now..

Jackie