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yes, i always cry. i've learned from years of experience to give myself around 1-2 weeks near/on her birthday to be sad and think of her.
my first boyfriend after i relinquished started a tradition that has helped me: he made her a birthday cake and we had a little party for her. some years it included other family members, different boyfriends, my husband, and sometimes it was just me. but evey year she had a cake (which I ate) and there were candles...it's just a way for me to honor the truth that i did in fact give birth and that i loved my bchild no matter where she was.
best of luck to you, birthdays & mother's day are the hardest for me, and it's been 22 years!
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