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Butterfly2008...
Oh goodness the LIES of adoption!!! I know them very well, unfortunately! All I can tell you is to just let some time pass, and adjust to the fact that the lies are just part of the adoption process. Why we as birthmom's are not told the truth, but then are held to a much higher level of standards is beyond me. We are expected to tell nothing but the truth, yet they fill us with lies and we are the ones looked upon so badly...UGH!!!
It is a lot to take in. As you have stated you are now regretting your choice to reveal those lies, however she is the one that put you in the position to even have the chance to expose them. (I hope that makes sense) Don't beat yourself too badly over it, but at the same time don't try to rush to fix it either. It is hard to be away from your child all of us birthmom's know that...but it is just as hard to sacrafice yourself for the well being of others.
Unfortunately this is not just about you and your daughter, it is now about a whole other family that are complete strangers to you. Again try to give it some time and pray that time will heal the wounds that have been inflicted on you all.
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