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I am a B-mom who had been passivly searching for 10 years and recently 2yrs ago did an active search through a CI.My b-son was born in 1975. When I first got his name I was told that he had been or possibly was on drugs. But he was trying hard to straighten up from that. I have/am in contact with a-dad through phone and email. A-dad seems supportive of reunion?
In June I had first of two f2f meetings. first meeting was far too short and I learned that things in his a-family were not so great. He said there was abuse but did not elaborate.He left home at age 16.The a-dad will not say much about my son's life as he said it is my son's story to tell. That is true but, I do not know how long has he had a drug problem,is it new or years old? Has he been to rehab? My son has never called me I have initiated all contact. Both of f2f we had went well and he was doing OK and seemed drug free. His girlfriend (who I did not meet) may still have a drug problem and so I beleive he will be pulled back to that world. When I tried to call him there was no answer. Now a recording comes on that says "this phone cannot receive incoming calls"
I do not know if he has slipped back to drugs, if he is pulling back or? Since I do not know him yet Is this part of his personality? My heart is breaking.When we met he seemed very happy to meet me. I gave him pictures and family history and had him meet his b-dad. (That was his request) Now I am cutoff. I mailed a letter to him and am hoping to hear something. I have emailed the a-dad as that will be my only way to keep track of my son should he "disappear" again.
All the not knowing is very hard. My emotions are off the charts and I think of him daily,hourly. He lives a few hours away but it might as well be mars.