[lahdh4]

... it would take 3 months to tell someone that you are stopping visits?
Why did I have to wait 3 months to hear this?
Why did I have to wait 2 weeks after I sent a note to ask for a visit to hear this?
Why did I have to hear that my open adoption just became a semi-open after our last visit 3 months ago?

I know this doesn't make any sense what-so-ever but I am hurt.
I am angry.
I don't know who to direct this anger to.
I don't want to direct it to anyone.
I just want to feel like a human again.
Like a worthy person. A person with confidence (has been gone for awhile now). A person who doesn't have to put on the smile and say all is well.