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Janey, you aren't negative. I have experienced all 3. Bson was placed when I was 17 and the day I came home from the hospital was the last time anyone spoke of him for years (I still mourn the loss of the years but realize, as an adult, that it was likely the best thing for him, not easier).
My first pregnancy, after marrying bdad at 24, was complicated and a decision was made (while I was out) that it was me or "him/her" so I have experienced an abortion - not something I would wish on anyone as, in my experience, the worst guilt I have ever felt, and I've had the anger and slurs thrown at me as a bmom. I was blessed to have 2 beautiful daughters but 3 years after my youngest daughter was born I was pregnant again. Sadly, my last child was stillborn. Out of all of my experiences I have to say that the adoption of my son was the hardest - simply because of the unknown! Although the other events in my life were devestating, the not knowing was most difficult. Of course, this is from my perspective so I can't speak for anyone else.
Life is definitely not easy for any of us!
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