Hey Kathy,
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I'm wondering if I could have searched in the way you are. I have no clue what my next step would have been
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Don't really know what mine is either except research and hiring people who know what they're doing. I guess I just keep looking. Every night I search through the various registries. I am going down to the courthouse next week to get non-identifying info. I also have a court rep that I'm hiring to help me. I am saving $50.00 from bills & groceries each week to get the fee. Should have that in roughly 4 weeks.
But I pace myself. I can't see much else for it but to pace myself. I am also practicing the different scenarious in my head (if they want to meet/if they don't).
And also a list of questions they might have about me if they should be interested in contact.
I was sent an inventory that I am required to turn in regarding myself. I'm also working on that.
Then too I just learned that one of the avenues that "way around things" I told you us Ganders do...one of those avenues has just been closed by the State of Michigan. It's a shame because I could've used it legitimately. That's all right. There will be answer.
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I think I had the courage to seek his location and make contact because I knew he had looked...
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Yeah I can understand that. I had convinced myself they weren't at all interested in me. And it could be that they're not. I just want to know that they were not abused Kathy. I just want to know that more than anything. There may be some who see that as a prejudicial fear but then, they haven't lived what I've lived. So I will forgive myself for this....phobia perhaps.
I don't really know what spurs me on. I mean of course knowing my children are okay and accepting that they are adults now; that they've lived their lives without me. ANd perhaps...small glimmer that they will like me if they meet me.
But I have been frozen in time and hen I am old (at least I hope I'll live to be old) I don't want to go out of this world wondering. No. Not that.
Have a wonderful day!
Janey