[cetalley]

Darling, my thoughts and prayers are with you....and your beautiful baby, that you love so much to try and make the right choice. I am a natural Mom(birthmother is some eyes), I relinquished 22 yrs ago, twin boys and it will never be the same. For it cannot possibly be so. I went through ,as many ,if not all of what most Moms' went through and for whatever reasons, we made our choices. Only you can know in your heart what you will do when that time comes. PLEASE I implore you to not over-think this so important issue before you have to. Meaning when your child is born, spend as much time as YOU want to spend with your beautiful baby, then and only then will you, not ANYBODY else , know what to do. You can over think something sometimes and make it worse than what it needs to be. Do not allow any ONE person tell you you have to go through with this , if indeed you have the slightest hesitation, I do mean the SLIGHTEST hesitation. It is never to late to change your mind, and believe me they will tell you it is. Look into those beautiful eyes and see what your heart speaks of. As I said do as YOU must do, not what others want of you,... you will know when you hold your baby, what is BEST...for it is a life changing experience you WILL live with the rest of your beautiful days on earth....I was told by a very wise man once, that if you remove a stone from the stream...it will change the flow of that stream forever.....' Life is what happens when making other plans"......GOD BLESS....P.S....I still miss my babies and will not fully appreciate the flow and beauty of that stream...until I put the pebble(s) back!