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Thank you, Jackie. I try really hard to take myself out of this and put what she may be experiencing first. In my opinion, she has much more to deal with. I had a wonderful home, was adopted as an infant, wonderful parents. My adoption was a positive experience for me. I do not see anything positive, even if it is the right thing to do for that situation, for the birthmother in placing a child. So I will be here. I will keep writing. I got a really nice note from her today. I get one about every week. I love and adore her, I don't want to overwhlem her though. (Although I am sure I probably do!! LOL!!! ) This has been hard, I lost my mother and I feel like I am losing my other mother who just came into my life. But all of you here have given me much to think about and look at, and I feel much better,it will all just take time. I can't expect a relationship in three years that normally comes over a lifetime. Thank you one and all.
Carolyn
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Carolyn
"And now I’m glad I didn’t know
The way it all would end, the way it all would go.
Our lives are better left to chance. I could have missed the pain
But I’d of had to miss the dance"
-The Dance by Garth Brooks
*memory of C. Scott Padget, III
"But it's all right now, I learned my lesson well.
You see, ya can't please everyone, so ya got to please yourself
-Garden Party by Ricky Nelson
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