Hello Julie23/Supermom,
that's so amazing to me how much love you have to give, a lot of mothering indeed!!
This is exactly why I signed up here, for the different viewpoints and information that I didn't know about.
Just WOW, this is so much more then I could have hoped for...
You just made my day! I will follow that lead right away!
I too believe in the primal wound theory, it's the only explanation I can come up with as to why I struggle so much everyday. I have done a lot of soul searching and traveled many paths. Extensive counseling, general doctors, psychiatrist/anti-depressants, self help books, church, prayer groups, ect. I always seem to fall back into my old patterns eventually. I know what I need to do but struggle to take the necessary steps.
I connected with a private counselor/spiritual adviser that came highly recommended from a friend. Amazingly he saw something in me and started giving me free sessions. He even invited me to his retreat center to stay free of charge. I gladly took him up on the offer to stay for the summer. I ended up staying for a full year. I was completely sober for the first 8 months. I thought this would allow me to clear my head, be more energized, get over my fears, and begin living a life I can be happy with.
Sadly it never worked out, those deep psychological wounds came back to haunt me and I started to self sabotage myself with pot and negative/fearful thinking. It was an amazing experience but I didn't get the inner strength and clarity I was searching for.
I do believe a counselor/ adoption specialist will be beneficial to me. And no I have never seen an adoption specialist but I like the idea.Every therapist I have been to has never addressed the adoption issues at all, they just avoid it all together. I just need to find the right one, a special person that can get through to me and understands my thoughts and feelings.
If you or anyone else has any recommendations in the south Florida area that would be great.
Thank you so much.