You can really get lost in it all. I just try to remember that each person and each family has their very own truth, their very own reality, and their very own story. We can witness what others have experienced, but it's not ours. It's not ours to carry or to internalize. That's not just about adoption; it's about everything in life.
Your journey will be your own, with all of its own circumstances, people, and experiences. There are some really great books, dvds, and resources about adoption. Maybe take a look at those too. I'm so glad we did.
I don't think you've been "self absorbed" either. You've been taking the critical first steps to building your family. It's an emotional time for you, it's normal to feel everything you are. I remind myself this is my journey, it's not anyone else's. That makes it easier for me to come to terms/peace with some of the things I see and read online.
Sending positive thoughts your way
