Thank you for answering. I am not sure if I am actually answering to the right person, I am new but I am trying to answer Keds. So please tell me how old is your son? I think I had read one of your posts before I went to meet my daughter. I remember praying "don't let that happen to me". I just read something someone else had written in response to another post I had done and she said that maybe Denise just wants information. Well maybe she does but why did she come on so nice? I am older and honestly when you say you have the rest of your lives to figure it out you probably aren't as old as I am and hence have longer. I think that is part of my issue, knowing that I may not have that long, although I am healthy, I am older and time seems to be fleeting. I just wanted to have my duaghter in my life and be able to know her and love her. Both her adopt. parents are dead and she has no sibs in that family. I know it is hurting her that her bio sibs and biofa don't want her in their lives but I honestly think if she would back up and give them time they may come around. I think it was in the post from Austin that she said that the rejection she is feeling regarding them is causing her not to trust me. But I AM THE ONE WHO WANTS HER IN MY LIFE!! Sorry I get so angry not at Austin but at this whole situation. Have you been able to ask your son what is going on? Does he have a whole other family or is he an only? Do you think he is feeling guilty about possibly bringing you into his life and upsetting them? Just a thought. I am guess you know how I am feeling. Just when I think I am over part of this I hit a wall. I was telling Austin that I thought I was doing okay then it came her bday and I acutally got to buy her a card and send it to her a person. I fell apart for a few days. Just mounds of saddiness and grief waves..... I only got to talk to my daughter and see her one time a few emails and thats it. It is killing me. I look at the picture she gave me of her when she was two or three days old and I want to scream "that is MY baby" but I know even by then she was not and now I don't think she ever will be. Tears .........
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