[Lilacsandroses]

so i wrote my loving thoughts of missing her voice, and her emails, and her acknowledgment in general and today i got the big NO...
she informed me that i now no longer have access to see her Myspace page, which is the only link to her that I have had for the past 2 full years since she stopped really communicating with me...and that apparently I didn't remember that in the first contact letter, that she sent me 3 years ago, she expressed that she didn't want continued contact, that she only wanted to know that I and her bfather were still "out there"....I'M DEVASTATED!!! I'm at work and haven't done a thing to day because I'm just sitting here crying!!! I called her bfather and told him too....we just can't believe it.....somebody say something....anything!!!