[Denisesmom]

I was recently found by my bdau. I had not been able to find her due to laws in Il and b/c I had no memory of the event. I could not remember the day she was born and was never told the sex of the child. At any rate she found me. I immediately allowed contact. Finally I thought my prayers were answered.
I found out she was a girl when she was born everything. I was running over with every emotions you can name. She seemed open excited and caring. However she had one weird rule no phone calls. I thought that was weird but I figured okay she doesn't know me we will get through this. Okay so we MET!!! Seemed to me to go well but after the meeting very very little contact. Emails only when she wants info or wants me to fill out paperwork for original birth certif. But nothing else. I had made an appointment to call her on her birthday which she agreed to. She would not pick up. I left a message. About two weeks ago I made another appointment to talk over an issue and she again agreed but when the appointed time came she again would not pick up. We do not talk, or email now. She talked to one of my friends the other night and basically told her she thought that her birth family was pretty darn dysfunctional and basically did not believe what I had told her. She is pushing her bsib and bfa to talk to her even though they have been very clear they do not want her in their lives. I know she is hurt by that I would be too.
Bottom line is this. This is killing me. I can't be respoonsible for what WAS. She has decided, I guess I am a nut case. Which by the way I am not. I know I have to let her go. But I hate it. I wish so much that we could talk. I wish she would just give me a chance. What is going on???
Sad and confused.