[Jackiejdajda]

Celtics

I've never considered an amends in regard to him but you are so correct. I was really a self centered coward back then. My concern is what he has been told. Will it harm him or others?

I was afraid to connect with my bson..
I went to an adoptee type conference once.. and spoke with a woman from ALMA (Adoptees' Liberty Movement Association), and I told her that I was afraid to contact him because I did not want to disturb his life..

She told me something that has stayed with me.. She told me that all I had to do was connect with him and tell him I had information that he may need.. and that I wanted to give it to him and what ever went on from there was up to him..
Get in and get out in other words..

Am I being selfish for wanting this?

An awful lot of posts posted here and elsewhere speak about the adoptee wanting to find out about their birthfather..
It seems to be a need..

I can't help but think that I, only in the natural way, helped to create a soul for eternity.

And you want to know what happened.. how he is doing.. there is no harm in that.. not in my thinking..
And trust me it helps.. My bson and I are not connecting a lot and I am okay with it.. I just like the fact that I can think of him and know where he is in the world..

Yes thank God for the grace to change. Today I have a fine wife and wonderful children all oif which would not be possible without the program

My husband quit drinking in 1985.. We did drugs before and after that.. My parents were drinkers..
Alanon is my base group.. but I qualify for other ones..

I love the steps of AA.. I love what they tell us.. and I continue to reach out to others.. Most especially birthmoms that are still in hiding.. still unable to tell what they need to tell..

Jackie