Aww Big hugs!! Your dream isn't over yet!! It hurts like crap when your heart tells you that this IS your child, then a cw tells you it isn't.
I know you've heard it all before, but I'm a firm believer in the "things happen for a reason" and the "your child will find you" kind of thinking. We all have the kids that we are meant to have. You WILL get your baby and be able to do everything that you wanted to do. You've got to keep believeing that.
And I know right now it doesn't feel that way. It's ok to be angry and sad, and also mourn the loss of this child. Just don't shut your heart down..don't give up, and I promise one day when your holding your baby, you'll think back to the hard road it took to get them home with you..and you'll treasure them even more.
Keep the dream alive..I know I am for you
