I have quite a bit of guilt over our adoptions.... some of it is probably irrational...but it's there anyways. (Yes.... I'm Catholic also
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My guilt usually gets worse while in Guatemala and lasts for a while afterwards.
I LOVE seeing my kids blend into a group. While we live in a fairly diverse area, it never seems like enough. I feel terrible that my kids are not going to be raised in their own families... I feel bad that I made a choice to adopt over conceive and that their moms cant really make a choice about their own bodies.
I feel bad that even as toddlers, my kids seem to stick out cuz they have lily white parents while they have beautiful brown skin.
I feel bad that they dont like to speak Spanish... K tells me it scares him.... I dont know why.
There are just some of my thoughts....
Overall, I'm very happy with my choice of family building and I belive that we do our best in exposing our kids to both of their cultures and languages.
I guess that is all that we can do, is to do our best.
jmo