[Indy]

I don't know what to say, except I understand. I have a couple of sons on a path I cannot seem to change. I have to believe that I have made a difference in their lives and go on. I never hear from J2, unless I call him. M1 has not called or returned my calls in 4 days. L is looking to move out the 1st of June, as he graduates next week. We are in the process of looking for a group home for M2.

Let's see...that leaves me with 5 at home. J3 has made it clear that he is 17 and is not liking the rules. I reminded him that I still pay the bills and am head of the household. C and V have backed way off, as they are "trying" to clean up their act. Sadly, V's plan when he turns 18 is return to WA to live with his bio brother and friend. Not a real good idea, as he and his brother are like fire and gas together. His brother is proud to be a "crip".

S and J4 are fine.

We pour so much into these children that when they throw it back into our face....we wonder why we ever did it to begin with. I know my heart is in for more pain in the coming years. I think it is the nature of the adoption beast.