[ranoutofnames]

Except for 3 weeks of her life, little A3 has never been overnight with her parents... tonight is her first overnight visit.

I'm not worried about her. It's just overnight, I'm sure her parents will take good care of her and they are probably thrilled that after loosing 4 children to TPR they will get to keep one child. They've done everything requested of them and I know they really love her.

I don't worry about her... but my heart is aching. They picked her up at 2pm, she should be arriving at her parents house about now and she has no clue that she doesn't get to come home to her own bed tonight.

I don't worry about her... but my heart is just breaking. Next weekend she'll be gone for 3 nights and likely the trend will continue. It's the way it's suppose to be and I fully support this RU, but that doesn't mean I want her to leave.

I don't worry about her... but my world feels like a very wonderful part is just about to be lost.

Truly my focus has been on my children... but at this very moment I'm gonna be a little selfish and just admit the most selfish part of me wants to cling to every second I can still have with her.

I love her so much... it's so hard to slowly say "good-bye".