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I know right now it's hard to see, but someday what you showed/taught these boys will come through. It may not be for many many years. But I'm betting the little bit of time they had with you, will mean something to them and will help them throughout their lives.

I'm guessing that doesn't help much right now, though. Hugs, Mike.

I'm sorry things seem so bleak and congrats on the award. Even if you're not accepting it, it was still awarded to you, there must have been a reason for that.

BTW, I'm just under 40 as well, and as far as parenting goes, you are WAY ahead of me. And, you can't be a 'has been' if you're still a parent!