... from one who has been there and done this and wondered what I did wrong and why can't it work better ... know it is not you - it is these kids and we can only hope the difference we make (no matter how miniscule) is a difference!
Please don't beat yourself up - those of us who have walked this road together know what a great Dad you are and hoping that you will still keep going - like us at one point you will know you can take no more children but until that time never say never - I truly don't think you are there yet - the caring, support, encouragement and love too still has lots of room for sharing ...
Keep us posted! And - you do deserve that award!
Always Your Friend on the most difficult journey in life - parenting!
