[cnelson8611]

I hope this is in the correct area of the forums. It's been years since visiting, mostly because 3 years ago I chose open adoption for my daughter and to this day I am happy with my decision.

I will try to explain what happened:
A couple of weeks ago, my family and the father had a visit with the adoptive parents and my daughter (adoptee) at my house who turned three. I have 2 children of my own.
The father has been attending every visit, however I have a new boyfriend who lives with me so he decided to bring a family member to the visit as well, who happened to be quite a rowdy teenager.
So it was a busy house with 3 kids (4 including the teenager) and 5 adults.

The visit was going well, however the teenager was getting a little noisy as she tried to entertain the kids, who are a lot younger than her.

Here was my mistake:
I am a smoker, but decided to dedicate a separate room to smoking away from everyone. However, I roll my cigarrettes to save money and still rolled in front of everyone.
I had my boyfriend roll me a cigarrette and suddenly the adoptive parents hoped up and said it was time to leave. Almost without warning!
They were so rushed, they even left their daughter sippy cup behind... which I imagine she wanted during the drive back home.

So if I haven't confused everyone yet... was it the fact that we were rolling cigarrette tobacco or maybe a combination of everything that made them hope up and leave so suddenly?
Am I just being scared?

I did feel bad and tryed to e-mail them thanking them for the visit and next time we can try a park instead.
I still feel very bad... me and the adoptive family do get along but I still find it hard to talk to them like friends.